"Show me Your glory
Send down Your presence
I wanna see Your face
Show me Your glory
Majesty shines about You
I can't go on without You, Lord"
-Third Day
I remember hearing this song in Belize, and loving it. I think I loved it because it described the cry of my heart so well. I was so desperate for the Lord's presence in my life, to see His glory - and I did. Even in the midst of the trials, even as I cried and felt so alone, the Lord met me right there in the jungle. He is so incredibly faithful!
The line of this song - "I can't go on without You, Lord", described me so perfectly. I was utterly desperate for Him to meet me each new day - I found myself so dependent upon Him. I also found that that is the best way to live.
I'm reminded of the passage in Acts 7 when Stephen was stoned. Acts 7:55 says, "But being full of the Holy Spirit, he gazed intently into heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God". Even in the midst of fierce persecution, Stephen was filled with the Holy Spirit and saw the glory of God. Sometimes it is in our hardest moments that we best see Jesus.
I look back on my times in the jungle, and as hard as they were, I wouldn't trade them for anything. Jesus taught me so much there, and I am still learning from those lessons.
I don't want to just look back and say, "I was so dependent on Jesus then". I want to be so dependent on Jesus NOW. I want to wake each new day longing to be in His presence, knowing I can't go on without Him. I want to be desperately dependent on Jesus each and every day. Truly I can't go on without Him.
